"Thoughts on Becoming a Mother"
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.I have endured and planned over and over again. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.
I have learned to appreciate life.Yes, I will be a wonderful mother."
-Unknown
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
Summer...
I'd say we have had a good summer so far. We started it out by taking a trip to Wooster, OH to see my grandparents. Grandpa had just gotten out of the rehab center and was able to come home. So, it was perfect timing to go visit. We had a little party with family and a few friends to celebrate their anniversary and Grandpa's 87th Birthday. The day consisted of the girls going carpet shopping and the boys doing odd jobs around the house.
This past weekend we spend time with Aaron and Court on Friday night. It's always fun when the four of us can get together. It makes for late nights but it's ALWAYS worth it!! On Saturday we (Blaine, Aaron, and myself) headed to Indianapolis. Aaron's Dad was the Boys All Star team coach. It was very exciting to see him coach the team. Then we spent Sunday with Alex. The boys went to the gun and knife show in Lafayette Sunday morning, so I got the chance to sleep in. :o) They then came home to pick me up and we headed back into town to do a little shopping, check out where Alex is going to be living in August, and have dinner at Monicals.
The rest of the weekends in June are busy for us...with a Cubs game next weekend and our friend Shawn from high school is getting married the weekend after. Before you know it...it will be time for school to start again :(
July is a little more open for us but we still have some fun things planned already. A concert, trip to the water park, little get away to Gatlinburg!!
"Life is a coin. You can spend it anyway you wish, but you can only spend it once."
I'd say we have had a good summer so far. We started it out by taking a trip to Wooster, OH to see my grandparents. Grandpa had just gotten out of the rehab center and was able to come home. So, it was perfect timing to go visit. We had a little party with family and a few friends to celebrate their anniversary and Grandpa's 87th Birthday. The day consisted of the girls going carpet shopping and the boys doing odd jobs around the house.
This past weekend we spend time with Aaron and Court on Friday night. It's always fun when the four of us can get together. It makes for late nights but it's ALWAYS worth it!! On Saturday we (Blaine, Aaron, and myself) headed to Indianapolis. Aaron's Dad was the Boys All Star team coach. It was very exciting to see him coach the team. Then we spent Sunday with Alex. The boys went to the gun and knife show in Lafayette Sunday morning, so I got the chance to sleep in. :o) They then came home to pick me up and we headed back into town to do a little shopping, check out where Alex is going to be living in August, and have dinner at Monicals.
The rest of the weekends in June are busy for us...with a Cubs game next weekend and our friend Shawn from high school is getting married the weekend after. Before you know it...it will be time for school to start again :(
July is a little more open for us but we still have some fun things planned already. A concert, trip to the water park, little get away to Gatlinburg!!
"Life is a coin. You can spend it anyway you wish, but you can only spend it once."
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Happy Mother's Day!
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Happy Easter!
We just got home from spending the day in Francesville with family. It's always nice to be surrounded by the ones you love. :o) I'm always thankful for our loving families and we are blessed so very much.
This past week was very busy for us. It was filled with running errands, cleaning up the house for the birthday parties, going to a baseball game, going out for dinner with my family to celebrate Meg's 28th Birthday...and Blaine completing AND passing his EMT test.
That was probably the highlight of the week in our house!! I am so proud of him.
This week we are going to hopefully have a little more free time. We have the inside of our house clean for the upcoming parties this weekend. We spent most of Saturday outside working on stacking wood and pulling weeds. There are a few more things that we need to do to get everything ready for my birthday this weekend but I'm sure we will get everything done.
I hope everyone had a great Easter! Have a good week! :o)
This past week was very busy for us. It was filled with running errands, cleaning up the house for the birthday parties, going to a baseball game, going out for dinner with my family to celebrate Meg's 28th Birthday...and Blaine completing AND passing his EMT test.
That was probably the highlight of the week in our house!! I am so proud of him.
This week we are going to hopefully have a little more free time. We have the inside of our house clean for the upcoming parties this weekend. We spent most of Saturday outside working on stacking wood and pulling weeds. There are a few more things that we need to do to get everything ready for my birthday this weekend but I'm sure we will get everything done.
I hope everyone had a great Easter! Have a good week! :o)
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Almost done.
Blaine only has 4 weeks left of EMT class. Next week is the class' spring break..the week after is our spring break..and then he takes his final test on the weekend of April 3rd! I'm so proud of him. I know he is excited to almost be done. He can't wait to start applying at depts to try to get on full time somewhere!
A little update..
I know it's been a long time since I've blogged. We've been somewhat busy and I just honestly haven't really had the desire to spend the time to log on. We went to Ohio for a weekend to see my grandparents and to celebrate Christmas and Gma's 83rd Birthday. Megan got me tickets for the Jason Mraz concert at Elliot Hall for an early birthday present. One of the best presents I've ever gotten..I might add!! It was nice to get to spend some sister time with her! We've both been so busy lately that we haven't really gotten a chance to spend time together.
We've got 10 more days until we leave for Spring Break. Megan, Matt, Blaine, and I are heading for Hilton Head Island. We are all so excited to just get away for a week. (No students to bother us!) I'm really looking forward to spending time with Blaine. We don't get the opportunity to go on vacation as much as we would like so we are definitely going to take advantage of this trip. We've had so much stress over the past month and a half. It's going to be nice to just get away and not think about fertility treatments/adoption/getting pregnant.
Our friends Brenda and Phil just welcomed their first child in mid-February. Madelyn Grace is adorable. It was nice to go over and visit with them a couple weeks ago. She is so tiny and precious. Adorable.
That's all for now..
We've got 10 more days until we leave for Spring Break. Megan, Matt, Blaine, and I are heading for Hilton Head Island. We are all so excited to just get away for a week. (No students to bother us!) I'm really looking forward to spending time with Blaine. We don't get the opportunity to go on vacation as much as we would like so we are definitely going to take advantage of this trip. We've had so much stress over the past month and a half. It's going to be nice to just get away and not think about fertility treatments/adoption/getting pregnant.
Our friends Brenda and Phil just welcomed their first child in mid-February. Madelyn Grace is adorable. It was nice to go over and visit with them a couple weeks ago. She is so tiny and precious. Adorable.
That's all for now..
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Final Day of Christmas Break :o(
Break went by way too fast. We had a great time with family and friends, but it just never lasts long enough! We have celebrated Christmas with all of our families except one. We are planning to head to Ohio over MLK weekend to have Christmas with Grandma and Grandpa Henderson.
New Years Eve turned out to be a blast. Plans were kind of up in the air until the night before but I think all who came had a good time. At least I hope! It was good to spend some time with Tony, Bev, Court, Jeremy, and Matt. I looked back on the messages on the Wii from that night and New Years day and I think we banked almost 9 hours of play time on the Wii. Nice :o) We had a lot of fun!
I've gone to Indy twice over break to have internal ultrasounds. Fun, right?! No, not really. They weren't as bad as the very first one I had. They are actually just starting to be a routine for me. Doesn't phase me much anymore. I go for another ultrasound and blood work tomorrow morning at 8 before I have to be at work at 8:30. What a way to start the new semester, right? It should be fine. They are just checking to see how many follicles I have in my ovaries and to see if they need to up the dose of the shots. After my ultrasound yesterday at 7AM in Indy...they decided to double the dosage for last night and tonight. So we will see what that does tomorrow when I go to the doctor. I am so glad we are going to Dr. Henry. He and his nursing staff are amazing! They make us feel very comfortable with all the new things they are throwing at us. I just really appreciate my nurse, Jamie, for not getting annoyed when I ask a million questions. I just feel like it's a lot of money to throw away if we don't do everything the way we should. Not that they guarantee anything but I just don't want to lessen our chances by not doing something right! I am so thankful to have Blaine as my husband and my rock throughout this whole thing. He is a saint when it comes to actually giving me the shots. It's kind of nice to have an EMT give me my shots instead of having me freak out trying to give them to myself! (one, two, three, ouch, poke)
Anyway, I better get some stuff done around here. I know that I will be exhausted this week after going back to work on Monday. And the shots don't give me any more energy ;o) It seems like I've been exhausted ever since I started taking them! But hopefully it will be all worth it! Keep praying...that's what we do! :o)
New Years Eve turned out to be a blast. Plans were kind of up in the air until the night before but I think all who came had a good time. At least I hope! It was good to spend some time with Tony, Bev, Court, Jeremy, and Matt. I looked back on the messages on the Wii from that night and New Years day and I think we banked almost 9 hours of play time on the Wii. Nice :o) We had a lot of fun!
I've gone to Indy twice over break to have internal ultrasounds. Fun, right?! No, not really. They weren't as bad as the very first one I had. They are actually just starting to be a routine for me. Doesn't phase me much anymore. I go for another ultrasound and blood work tomorrow morning at 8 before I have to be at work at 8:30. What a way to start the new semester, right? It should be fine. They are just checking to see how many follicles I have in my ovaries and to see if they need to up the dose of the shots. After my ultrasound yesterday at 7AM in Indy...they decided to double the dosage for last night and tonight. So we will see what that does tomorrow when I go to the doctor. I am so glad we are going to Dr. Henry. He and his nursing staff are amazing! They make us feel very comfortable with all the new things they are throwing at us. I just really appreciate my nurse, Jamie, for not getting annoyed when I ask a million questions. I just feel like it's a lot of money to throw away if we don't do everything the way we should. Not that they guarantee anything but I just don't want to lessen our chances by not doing something right! I am so thankful to have Blaine as my husband and my rock throughout this whole thing. He is a saint when it comes to actually giving me the shots. It's kind of nice to have an EMT give me my shots instead of having me freak out trying to give them to myself! (one, two, three, ouch, poke)
Anyway, I better get some stuff done around here. I know that I will be exhausted this week after going back to work on Monday. And the shots don't give me any more energy ;o) It seems like I've been exhausted ever since I started taking them! But hopefully it will be all worth it! Keep praying...that's what we do! :o)
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